He heard the ice cracking, the sound traveling up through the soles of his feet. Fissures shot out around him as the surface of the lake sagged. Jimmy saw that he was trapped in the center of a web of broken ice, that he was too heavy, that water lay beneath the thin, transparent surface and was lapping at its underside like a great gray tongue. He was nearly to shore but that was no help. Two thoughts came to him: that he was eleven years old and that he was about to die.
The cold entered his clothes like fire as the ice opened beneath him. He tried scrambling back, arms flailing, but the surface of the lake dissolved into rubble, and within moments his joints had locked solid and he could no longer keep himself afloat. Help, he croaked to his three friends who stood on shore and stared. The last thing he saw as he went under was his sled gracefully balanced on the edge of the hole.
The ice in Antarctica is altogether different from the lake ice in Minnesota, some of it being centuries or perhaps millennia old and tough as cast iron. Falling through it is impossible. In fact getting through it at all requires driving a drilling rig on tank treads at a lumberous 3 kph out from the McMurdo Research Station, while emperor penguins, riding on their bellies, pass easily by.
Its a noisy trip inside the cold cab of the huge Caterpillar, and Jimmy finds that despite having done it many times before, hes still anxious. Simon, his colleague and research partner, uses the GPS to pinpoint their study site from last summer before starting the drill, its huge corkscrew bit screaming as it bites into solid ocean. Jimmy busies himself peeling off his foam-rubber-lined exposure suit, wool sweater, wool shirt, thermal undershirt, fleece-lined jeans, thermal underpants, outer socks, and inner socks. Hes got the heater inside the Cat cranking at maximum but even so its cold. For a moment hes naked; the frostbite scars and missing toes, as always, fascinate him.
Jimmy, Simon shouts above the drill. Get dressed.
Normally he wears his own custom-made dry suit. But while testing it at the station yesterday he noticed a weak seal along one of the seams. So today he wears Simons suit. Its way too big, but theres really no such thing as a too-big dry suit.
Jimmy dons three layers of long underwear, the first a thin white silk, followed by a union-suit thermal, then a furry gray synthetic that makes him look like a yetiespecially the odd, three-fingered mittens. On top of it all comes a Day-Glo purple ski suit. After that he attacks the dry suit itself, the big rubber mass of it, wrestling with the absurdly tight gaskets at wrists and ankles. The worst part is putting on the hood, like trying to be born again, squeezing through the clammy, grippy darkness of the neck. Once its on, welded to his head, hes nearly deaf.
Almost through, shouts Simon over the roar of the drill bit.
What? shouts Jimmy.
Simon glances at him, sees the hood, shrugs, then pantomimes the drill, pointing down at the ice, finger going in circles. They cut this seal hole yesterday, a four-hour job. Today theyre piercing only the last twenty-four hours skin.
Jimmy waddles down the stairs from the cab of the Cat, slipping and falling the last two steps. It doesnt matter, hes as well padded as a polar bear. Simon holds up his thumba question. Jimmy flips him a thumb back, hes fine.
Frankly, theyre maternal toward each other out here, and why not? Its clearly an adaptive behavior that helps them survive this brutal climate. Everyone at the Station bonds with a partner, some as broody as old hens. The few who dont seem strange, like caricatures of men, pumped up, over-adrenalized, dangerous evento themselves and anyone else who might have to save them from their notions of independence.
The drill stops. Inside Jimmys hood it sounds like nothing, just the shush of blood coursing through his own veins. He stares at the water swirling in the ice hole and the few stunned krill riding its eddies. In theory, the dry suit should keep him as separate from this frigid sea beneath the ice as an astronaut is from the vacuum of space.
Sinking into the Minnesota lake was strangely comfortable, Jimmys muscles paralyzed and helpless, his arms and legs, bulky inside the snowsuit, wrapping around him in a self-embrace. Pirouetting in slow motion to the bottom 15 feet below, he saw the light under the ice as lustrous and blue as a Popsicle on that shiny winter day. The only discomfort was the shock of ice water flooding inside his hood and the thump as his head hit the bottom, exploding a silt-storm that closed out the light. Still he kept his eyes open, occasionally sighting his red-mittened hands weaving through the murk like curious puppets.
Its been a year since Jimmys done this tricky work, and he belays himself mentally through each step of the job before committing his body to it. The regulator is attached to his mask so he cant drown even if he loses consciousness (breathe in, breathe out, air seems good). He wriggles into the shoulder harness of the scuba tank as Simon attaches the low-pressure hose and bleeds some air off to inflate the dry suit slightly. The heat inside it now is a self-generated steam room: sweat, fear, and claustrophobia mixed together. Simon checks his gauges.
Three thousand pounds of air, he shouts.
Jimmy nods. They both know its far more than hell ever need down there. Long before he can breathe through it hell be a shivering wreck.
He straps the dive computer to his wrist as Simon carries the digital-video camera in its waterproof housing out to the edge of the ice hole. Jimmy crosses one leg then the other, yanks his fins on, swings his legs over the edge. The pressure of the water pinches the loose folds of the dry suit against his ankles.
I hate dry suits, he says to Simon. Through the regulator it comes out sounding like Ii-aii-ii-ouos.
Simon nods. He dives too, but on alternate days from Jimmy because of the toll it takes on their mental and physical reserves.
Jimmy gives Simon a thumbs-up.
Whoa, says Simon. Hang on. Your lifeline.
Shit, thinks Jimmy.
Its early in the season. Behind them, the stone-and-snow cone of Mount Erebus vents its volcanic breath, reminding them there is land here. Its a fine day, the sun shining but the wind blowing spindrift sharp as staples. The only place it hits skin is on a thin strip along Jimmys forehead. He turns away.
Simon, his face protected by a nuclear-green balaclava, lumbers over to the Caterpillar, retrieves the nylon line attached to the front bumper, then ties it to the rescue buckle on the back of Jimmys dry suit.
OK, he says, patting Jimmy on the shoulder.
Jimmy hoists himself off the edge of the ice hole and slumps into the water. For a minute he feels the old panic and adjusts his face mask so that Simon wont see.
For a long time he lay on the bottom of the lake, neither swimming nor breathing nor dying. Long enough for the silt to settle over him. Long enough for him to see that two of his friends were still standing on the high snowbank above peering through the slush ice in search of him. The view was disturbing: him down here, his friends up there, this strange inescapable realm separating them. So he closed his eyes, and in that moment all the muscles in his face went slack as his jaw fell open and the water flooded inside.
Now beneath the seal hole, the shock of cold on his forehead seems to eat right through to the bone. A trickle of water oozes through the neck valve on his dry suit. Perfectly normal, Jimmy reassures himself, his underlayers will wick it up. Yet anything more than a seep would be disastrous. If he ever really sprang a leak the suit would fill with water and not even Simon would have the strength to haul him in. Theyve discussed that. Theyd use the Cat, of course. Still, it would be a cadaver retrieval, not a rescue.
He hangs just under the seal hole, reluctant to leave its orifice, watching his exhaust bubbles weave upward and then bump against the underside of the ice. He feels Simon tugging on the tether and reaches behind to tug back. Alls well.
Simon is surely noticing that Jimmys not descending. Thats OK. First dive of the season is a fuckless wonder as far as data goes. Just get your bearings. Get steady. Later on theyll begin to identify and count the species living under the ice and map the creatures movements over time.
Diving under the ice is different for Jimmy than it is for Simon, who dives out of a love of adventure as well as a post-doctoral ambition to decipher the chemical defenses of invertebrates in Antarctic seas. Jimmy dives for these reasons too. But hes in search of more, some clue to the death that grabbed him, swallowed him, then spit him up nineteen years ago.
He presses the bleeder valve on his chest. Air streams out of the dry suit and bounces up inside its cage of ice as Jimmy sinks.
Just as planned, Simon has put them right over their old study site. Jimmy can see the grid they laid out last summer, the yellow nylon line in three-meter squares still intact in the deeper reaches but plowed to chaos in the shallows by rampaging icebergs. He swims along the perimeter, filming. Tonight, he and Simon will analyze the video and plan Simons dive tomorrow to begin to repair the grid.
The bottom is gray, sandy, silt actually dragged out from the land and ground up by the ice, its surface dimpled by countless millions of clams, all but their siphons buried. Except for the occasional penguin jetting by, or a seal, all under here is still. This is an illusion. In reality, a yellow sea spider standing on the bottom is in motion, tiptoeing incrementally from here to there, making, at best, a centimeter an hour. Straddling Grid 7-C and 7-D, a companionable huddle of red sea stars seems frozen to the carcass of a Weddell seal. This is also an illusion. Each star is wrestling and squirming in extreme slow motion, Sumo-style, to the bottom of the pile, hoping to make contact with the carrion, evert its stomach, and begin to digest the flesh. Speed notwithstanding, the aggression is fierce, and those stars that cant elbow in with all or most of their five arms will lose out on what may be the only meal of a fleeting Antarctic summer.
Dying back then was an oddly seamless experience. He lay on the bottom and the cold settled into him. That was all. It froze him, then froze him some more. He became aware of his heartbeat slowing, the lengthening interval of stillness bracketing each contraction. Lying there seemed the right thing to do under the circumstances, and he remembers thinking, I am a good boy.
Heartbeat fading to a shiver, Jimmy separated from his body. From the outside he looked small, not at all as hed felt himself to be. Slowly, he began to drift, up to the surface, through the slush, hovering in the air. Frankie and Timmy sat on the lake bank, perched on their Radio Flyers, staring into the water, Frankie rocking his sled back and forth from his heels, Timmy sitting on the front so that its rear runners tilted off the ground.
I guess hes dead by now, said Frankie.
Shit, said Timmy.
How longs he been in there?
Maybe ten minutes.
Already the slush was healing solid.
Jimmythis other Jimmycould see their fear, a kind of black aura around them. It was not so much fear of death itself. More the fear of what was going to happen to them as a result of it. The shit that was coming their way.
Twenty minutes into his dive under the Antarctic ice, despite swimming hard along the lines of the grid, Jimmy is shaking uncontrollably. He continues to film. Itll be ugly but useful. Twenty-five minutes down he feels Simon tugging at the tether. OK. Five more minutes. Now he does what he always does with the last moments of each dive, turns off the camera, releases the last of the air from his dry suit, and bumps down to the bottom as silt wafts over him. Slowly he turns onto his back, stares up at the ceiling of ice, its underside soft and rounded like the bellies of clouds, only green. To his left, a lone fish, a marbled notothenia, lies on the seabed. Jimmy checks the thermometer on his dive computerminus 0.3°C. By all the laws of science that fish should be frozen solid, its cells punctured by crystals of ice. Instead, it stares at him, comfortable and relaxed in this hostile realm. Jimmy wonderswithout the glycopeptides this fish carries in its intercellular tissues and blood, how did he survive his icy plunge nineteen years ago?
Fifteen minutes after he had fallen through the ice the Search and Rescue team arrived in a trucktwo men in wet suits, a captain who drove, and eleven-year-old Simon, sitting up front. Jimmy watched as Simon pointed out his two friends sitting on the bank, then scrambled out of the cab, running for the edge of the ice while the truck still rolled forward.
The SAR team went to work, laying out the hoses, starting the generator on the truck, firing up the compressor to feed air through the hookahs. Jimmy was impressed. Hed watched this stuff on TV. Yet he could also see more, colors, angular and blue, spiking outward from the rescue men so that Jimmy knew they were frightenedfor him, the Jimmy underwater, as well as for themselves who had to go find him.
Simon stood on the edge peering in, until one diver, about to inch feet first into the water, pulled him away. Frankie and Timmy stood nearby. Its been like fifteen minutes, said Frankie.
Twenty, said Timmy.
Grab him, shouted Simon into the water.
He cant hear you, said Timmy.
The flashing lights of an ambulance bounced off the snowbanks as paramedics unloaded a gurney, laying towels and blankets on top of it.
One divers head broke through the slush, his face livid purple from the cold. He pulled the regulator from his mouth, hands twitching, breath steaming, Cant find him.
Try again, said the captain.
The diver nodded, bit back down on the regulator.
Hes under the sled, shouted Simon.
The diver sank, his bubbles rising to the surface.
I could find him, said Simon, almost hopping with frustration.
Shit, Simon, whispered Frankie, pulling him away. Leave them alone.
Some part of Frankie, something around his ears, was now tremblingly green, like fireflies. It was wondrous, how this, the other Jimmy, knew that Frankie was ready and even excited to embark on the adventure of having a dead friend.
Lying alone on his back on the bottom of the Antarctic sea, Jimmy closes his eyes. OK. Hes ready. He stops breathing, carefully pulls off the mask, the regulator coming with it. The cold on his face produces an instant, agonizing headache and his jaw clenches from the pain. He forces himself to relax until his mouth falls open.
The water enters, attacking his teeth, tongue. Slowly he opens his eyes. The cold . . . surely it is the most horrifying of all sensations. His body seizes from it, wracking off the sea floor as he groans, bubbles spiraling up to the ice roof. For a moment he pities himself, then remembers why he does this. Somewhere in this realm where living things slow to an almost complete stop without actually ceasing, where starfish remain motionless for up to a year at a time, where fish live decades or perhaps centuries, life begins to approximate infinity. This is the real subject of Jimmys research.
Time passed, critical time for Jimmy underwater. Thirty minutes. Thirty-two. The paramedics moved to the edge of the ice, peering in. The SAR captain fielded radio calls to the police. The two divers searched ever more frantically through the blinding silt, billows of it roiling to the surface and staining the slush black.
Finally one diver burst up, regulator falling out of his mouth.
Got him! he shouted.
The other diver broke the surface, head still bowed into the water, looking under as he clawed his way to shore, hauling something that came partially out of the water, a shoulder, then an arm, followed by Jimmys head, the neck so limp it looked broken, the face streaky, dull blue. Water streamed off him, poured literally out of him as the paramedics raced with him up the hill.
The answer that Jimmy has waited for so long lies just beyond the cusp of consciousness. He can feel its presence, not embodied, not something you could shake hands with, but something as perfect and still as twilight, something round, quiet, lustrous, yet dark. Hes close to it now, its almost down his gullet and inside him.
Simon is tugging on the tether. Ignore it. Tug. Thirty minutes, time to leave. Forget about it. Tug. Its like the precipice of an orgasm. Tug. No. How can he? Simon. The bastard.
Too late. The answer comes out of him on a fishhook and monofilament line. He snaps his teeth together, trying to hold it inside. No good, its gone.
He wrenches the mask back down onto his face and punches the purge valve. Water gushes out, followed by air. Simon is hauling at him now. Hell. He can swim, but when he tries, his legs spasm uncontrollably.
Dragged backward by the buckle, Jimmy bleeds some air into his dry suit but then finds himself too buoyant so that he ascends and collides with the ice above. Thats unpleasant. Simon reeling him in, a spent fish, his head and shoulders grinding against the ceiling. He tries to reorient himself in order to fend it off with his arms, and in the process finds his legs beginning to kick again, enough to keep him from bumping off the roof like a helium balloon. By the time he gets to the sealhole hes managed to turn himself around and self-locomote.
Popping up into the air, he can see through the water sluicing off his mask that Simon is yelling, but he cant hear what. He fumbles to unsnap the buckle on the scuba-tank harness, wriggles out of it, and holds it at the surface for Simon to grab. But Simon is still shouting, gesturing, his eyes inside the holes of the balaclava sparking with fear. Jimmy makes a circle with his thumb and forefinger and holds it up, the universal divers sign for Im all right. Only partially reassured, Simon nods as he reaches for the spent tank.
Jimmy knows the look; on the edge of the Minnesota lake when the siren started and the ambulance surged forward skidding and bouncing against the snowbank, he watched Simon receding behind him on the road, Simons face surrounded by a yellowish halo of doubt.
Then Simon was gone, and Jimmy turned his attention to the two paramedics tending his lifeless body, one cutting the wet clothing away, hands and arms expertly weaving in and around the ministrations of the other who rhythmically administered CPR. On the third round of heart massage, Jimmy re-entered his body, slipping in through the nose, riding the breath of life down into his lungs where he once again became part of the body that had for the past thirty-eight minutes been unconscious, then dead, now unconscious again.
Jimmys shaking so hard with cold that twice he lurches out of his seat as Simon drives, screeching through the gears, shouting the whole way.
What the hell happened down there?
Jimmy knows that screaming is Simons way of showing concern.
Got really cold, says Jimmy, his teeth chattering, breathless.
Well why the fuck didnt you come up sooner?
Christ almighty. You shouldve signaled me. I wouldve hauled you in.
I know I did.
Thanks, says Jimmy. Didnt know I needed help.
You didnt know? says Simon. Youre swimming and swimming and suddenly you cant swim and you dont know you need help?
Jimmy reaches to the dashboard to turn up the heater. His arms are jerking so much he cant land his fingers on the lever.
Wasnt swimming, he says.
You werent swimming?
Suddenly hes absolutely, completely spent. Its always this way after ice diving, not a morsel of energy at the end of it. He gives up on the lever.
Simon turns the heat up for him. What were you doing?
Jimmy has never told Simon about what he does at the end of each dive. Lying on the bottom, he says.
Lying on the fucking bottom? Doing what?
But thats all Jimmy can say. The rest is as painful and private as a self-inflicted wound. Simon doesnt press, both men realizing theyve come up against that nineteen-year-old wall, the complicated thing that both bonded them together and separated them from each other years before.
Well, take a shower when you get back, says Simon. Get warm.
Jimmy nods. Its what they always do after ice diving, stand under the hot water until the extremities burn with returning life.
For four hours in the emergency room they worked on Jimmys core temperature before they got it close to normal. The first thing he remembered was waking up and seeing through his own eyes again, startled by the limited field of view they offered. His parents were there, crying, rubbing his hands, as Simon waited in the background.
Hi, said Jimmy, his voice sounding as if it came through a hair comb.
Whos that? asked a doctor, pointing to Jimmys mother.
Mom, whispered Jimmy.
Whats your name? said the doctor.
How old are you?
Amazing, said the doctor.
Whats the password? said Simon, stepping closer, leaning in.
Jimmy paused, smiled. Im not gonna say that here.
Everyone laughed in relief.
Jimmy is eating a huge steak (6-cms Thick, the mess blackboard states), a mound of french fries and coleslaw, as well as a second plate heaped with spaghetti and meatballs. He alternates monstrous bites with slugs of boiling hot coffee. Its always like this after a dive, eat and eat and still shiver. Hes already showered and put on damn near every piece of clothing he owns. Normally Simon would be eating with him.
He stares at his empty plates, feeling the shock in his system, the aftereffects of what he has to admit was a reckless and stupid act under the ice today. It must have been Simons dry suit; too big after all, too big for him to keep the volume of air inside it warm. So why does he continue to do this? Because he wants to explore those things he once briefly knew, to touch that porous world between life and deaththough hes unlikely to solve anything in this lifetime, as his own research is, in the end, puny and unquantifiable: not science at all.
He carries his trayful of dirty plates to the stainless-steel cart outside the kitchen, the energy draining from his limbs as his feet drag across the floor. All he really wants at this moment is to sleep. But instead he pushes himself on, shrugging back into his parka, cinching the hood, donning one mitten and then the other with the help of his teeth. He crosses the compound, waving lethargically at colleagues, trudging slowly to the ice lab.
He finds Simon standing alone by the rack of aquariums, tending their captivesthe Antarctic limpets, the specimens of Serolis polita, including a pregnant one bursting with pink eggs, some krill, and a lone, prize icefish. Simons in the process of netting a krill, but when he realizes Jimmy has entered, he turns his back to him.
Jimmy watches as the krill contracts violently, trying to escape the forceps as Simon plucks her from the net and drops her onto a petri dish. The beating of her heart within her translucent body is blurred with speed.
Go in peace, is what Jimmy thinks whenever he sacrifices some living thing. Or sometimes, simply, Sorry. Simon grunts, shrugs a shoulder, and Jimmy realizes he must have said it aloud.
Using three straight pins, Simon pegs the krill to the petri dish, then inserts a hypodermic into her heart to extract the blood. Its clear as dew. No oxyhemoglobin here, just hemocytes, the subject of Simons research. Her swimming legs beat continually; its what shes always done, swim and swim from the moment of her birth.
She dies from the inside out, her clear tissues clouding up, her legs falling still.
The next morning Simon is polite but distant, refusing to ask Jimmy for help. In his dry suit with the tool kit, hammer, stakes, and a coil of yellow nylon line, he looks like some oversized cartoon character, good or evil, Jimmys not sure which. Hes collected all this gear himself and dressed himself as Jimmy tries to look busy with the drill. Simon is the only diver Jimmy knows who can walk with all his ice-diving gear on. Everyone else sits on the edge of the hole and falls over. But Simon makes an elegant, nearly splashless step-entry as the water closes over him.
Jimmy notes the time of entry into the log before tidying up inside the Cat, picking up Simons clothes from the floor, folding them roughly, heaping them on the crankcase, which is still warm. Then he walks out to the edge of the seal hole and retrieves the nylon tether.
Its overcast today. A snow thin as dandruff is falling. Its questionable whether its really falling or simply being blown off the ground, swirled around, and dropped again. At any rate, its cold. Even with his exposure suit and polar boots Jimmy can feel it biting into his feet and knees.
He watches a pair of emperor penguins approach, beaks bobbing left and right as they waddle. They circle the Cat once, inspecting, then flop onto their stomachs to paddle over to where Jimmy sits, rescue line draped across his lap.
Hello, he says.
In one motion they flip from the horizontal to the vertical. Standing now, they wait alongside him, peering down into the water. Seated, Jimmys head is not quite even with theirs. He checks his watch.
Five minutes. He gives three tugs.
No answer. He tugs again. A penguin bends over and pecks at the line snaking across the ground. Simon, he says. Three more tugs, and again. OK, shit, thats enough. Jimmy stands, braces himself, and begins to haul. Nothing. He tries againno good, cant move the line, its like trying to tow an iceberg. For the first time panic ignites along the edges of his mind. He can feel it weakening his body and pushes it away, willing it gone with all his strength. Adrenaline rushes in and he heaves again until he believes he can actually see the line stretching. Still nothing. He runs for the cab of the Cat.
The engine is running but the clutch is, as always, stubborn. He works the gearshift, trying to coax it into reverse. Eventually he rams it into gear and inches it backward as the line tightens slowly until a sound like a rifle report pings through the chassis. He cant believe what hes seeing. The line is broken. One half recoils toward him. The other slithers over the edge and down the seal hole.
The base director, Howard, will not allow Jimmy to dive for Simon. He cant stop him from suiting up, but he wont give Jimmy any air. Instead he sends two rescue divers in, a pair of amphipod guys from Berkeley. Its everyones nightmare, Jimmy can see it on their faces, it could have been one of them. His system is raging as he paces, working up a hellacious sweat inside the dry suit. Howard doesnt seem to understand the urgency.
Its been forty-two minutes, says Jimmy.
Put on your balaclava, says Howard.
You know he can be revived. I mean I was revived after thirty-eight minutes.
I know, says Howard. Put on your balaclava.
Jimmy pushes back his hood, pulls down the balaclava, realizing as he looks through the eyeholes that its not his, but Simons. Somehow, like putting blinders on a horse, he feels calmer, and stands quietly across the seal hole from Howard.
A diver rises up to the surface, lifts his mask and regulator.
Found him, he splutters.
Howard nods. Can we bring him in?
They use a polar tow truck, winching him up, ridiculously slowly, the deliberate and lugubrious pace of everything in the Antarctic. Jimmy finds himself hating it, the ice, the cold, the slow-motion burgling of life.
As kids, Simon always envied Jimmys accident scars. The missing toes. Frostbite burns. It was manly stuff. Later on Simon listened to Jimmy talk about his time under the ice, the colors, the disembodiment. Simon was the only one who ever believed Jimmys story.
Now Jimmy studies the indentations on Simons lips where he was intubated with the respirator. He examines the holes in his arms and on the back of his hands where they inserted blood/gas monitor lines, IV saline, and who knows what else. Theres still a piece of surgical tape on Simons nose, which Jimmy peels off. He notices the left knee with the old crescent-shaped scar and has to think for a moment before remembering the time Simon fell off his bike along Lakeville Street, after Jimmy tossed a cherry bomb at him.
For a while, everyone explains things to him.
The base doctor about how children do better in cold-water submersion than adults do. The rescue divers about how they found Simon wedged behind a grounded iceberg in only four meters of water, how they had to dig the bottom away to get him free. Howard, alone with Jimmy in the bunkhouse, about the dry suit: frayed along the upper back, a small tear in the right shoulder, filled with water. Any idea how that could have happened?
Jimmy shakes his head. But he knows it must have happened when he was dragged along the ceiling of ice the day before. And Howard wonders, didnt Simon signal his distress? Didnt he tug on the line? Jimmy feels incredibly dull-witted. He cant actually think, can only remember folding Simons clothes.
At 3:00 a.m. that same night, or morning, or whatever it is in this relentlessly bright realm of the polar summer, Jimmy watches the weak beam of the sun circle the horizon through a haze of snow. Already the seal hole is plugged with new ice. A line of penguins far off to the north toboggans toward the open sea. Lucky birds, he thinks, feathers fitting tightly as scales, filoplumes to trap warm air, subcutaneous pads of fat. Everything efficiently designed for the frigid air and water.
Jimmy shifts, trying to find some comfort on the cold ice. In going, Simon has finally solved Jimmys problem, the one theyve both been researching all along. Seated beside the seal hole Jimmy feels like a frozen man, a snowman collecting white flakes fluttering from the sky. Patiently he waits, hopeful that the answer he needs might still be adrift in the air, or locked into the matrix of thickening water.